im sorry for all the negative posts today but honestly im v ?? now

like

most of the time im ok w/ me not being the most popular person around or shit but honestly what is it about my personality that repulses people

aside from my constant self-pity that is, i’m aware of that

i mean i know im p..direct?? as in upfront??? but i always try to be polite when we dont know each other well and im helpful most of the time??

ugh i dont even know why im complaining about this now its just that anyone i’ve ever dated/been interested in has started withdrawing once they really got to know me like

im sorry im not as funny or smart or nice as you thought me to be?? i honestly i am i wish i knew how to be different i’m sorry it’s only my looks that attract people and even then you gotta have low standards so yeah lol

its been a while since i’ve wanted to harm/kill myself tbh but I can feel myself slipping back into it the more I think about it and I hate it